Hey everyone long time no talk, haven’t really been up to much as of late, just the usual job hunting. Its really hard looking for a job these days especially when you’re in the pickle that I'm in... Not saying at unique or any thing it’s hard every hurdle I come up against bet he same in a word ‘experience’. It’s so annoying that no one’s me a chance, that’s all im looking for one chance. I would really like o get into the IT support area of the world, as it is something that I have done and enjoy doing, I love to solve problem and know that I helped that person. Silly I know but it makes me feel good, I love to help people its in my nature, but the way things are going at the moment I don’t ever thing Im going to get a job, OK Ive for quite a few interviews, but none of them have ended up in a job, I just don’t understand why. I guess I never will. I would really really like to know what’s wrong with me, am I looking in the wrong place? Or the wrong time? It gets me so angry, and I wont lie to you dear reader, ive come very close at times to causing myself serious damage, stupid I know but some times screaming doesn’t cut it! I feel like im drowning in time, like a river but it take s longer, I feel as if I m slowly wasting away, and soon I will be a husk of a man, with no propose or desires.
All except Charli. Along with God, she is the only thing that has been keeping me going as of late, even if at one point it was touch and go, I really do love her, and I know she loves me. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with her, it will be so awesome, and I just want that to start now. But it doers beg the question, am I missing out on ‘life’ if I do, or is Life all about being as Dad? Im not saying I don’t want to be a Dad, to him honest I want nothing more in the world. But I know to be a good dad, you need to have money (such is the way with these things), am I good enough for her? I know she loves me but will I be a good Dad? I really don’t know, and more to the point, will I be ready?
Any way ive moaned for long enough, so Ill go now.
Bit of a Rant.
Happy Easter
Happy Easter everyone, I hope you all enjoy this day, and just remember one thing.
Some of us stay at the cross,
some of us wait at the tomb,
Quickened and raised with Christ
yet lingering still in the gloom.
Some of us 'bide at the Passover feast
with Pentecost all unknown,
The triumphs of grace in the heavenly place
that our Lord has made His own.
If the Christ who died had stopped at the cross,
His work had been incomplete.
If the Christ who was buried had stayed in the tomb,
He had only known defeat,
But the way of the cross never stops at the cross
and the way of the tomb leads on
To victorious grace in the heavenly place
where the risen Lord has gone.
Annie Johnson Flint.
Many Days...
I thought i might blog, i haven't in while and quite a lot has happened as of late. Last Monday, Jen, from the Chaplaincy came round to my lovely flat at Singer to bless it, along with a few others in the block. We all have been having a run of bad luck as of late, and it was a good idea to get the place looked over. Was a interesting experience, from my point of view, I could defiantly feel a difference, before and after. Not to mention the miraculous disappearing cold spot in my room which is nothing short of amazing! I guess thats God for you, always working in the ways you don't realize.
On the God side of things I have been getting on quite well with my old pall Jesus, managed to keep my Lenten promise, tea with no sugar, quite hard, and has caused one issue, I now cant drink it! Oh well, nothing to worry about. I am certainly a lot more trusting in him then I was, it occurred to me a few days ago that if I wasn't meant to be doing this I wouldn't be, yes I have choices to make in my life, as does everyone, the only difference, is I have someone to ask, which the right one is, and it is my duty to carry out that decision, wether I like it or not. Its a strange way of looking at it but it works for me!
Charli was down for a few days was lovely spending time with her, even if it was only a few days. I really do cherish her, and love her with all my heart. She went home, back to Gloucestershire on the wednesday (19th), sad to see her go, I miss her a lot, but i know in time will get to see her again. On the thursday I went to go see tutors about my course, and the problems therein, not that helpful to be honest, as most of it boils down to fiscal problems, not a lot they can do, but in essence, I am resident in Coventry till the end of the academic year, (June), unless something BIG comes up job wise. Fingers and Prayers people! :)
I've come home back to the good old 'tage for a few days, Dad picked me up on Friday, and went out that same evening, was strange being out in my old town, there were new people in the places I used to call home, it was like looking into a book and all the words being different. Nevertheless I met up with few old friends, had a good old natter and a pint, well deserved I think. Going to Church tomorrow (well today as I write this!), Easter service, should be good. :)
Back to Coventry most likely the Wednesday after easter, have a family thing on tuesday, not really looking forward to it at all, but it has to be done, for the good of the family.
Ill leave you with this quote, I cant remember were I heard it, or who said it, but It stuck with me:
Only the destination is known Not the Journey
Long time no update....
Well well well, been a long time since this place has seen a fresh post, so I thought Id do one here, been blogging at my other blog, for a bit, but I will be using this one as well now :).
So whats happend to me in the past fewweeks and months? Well, I have decided to leave universty, yes I know that might sound a little brash of me, but Ive come to the decision that it really isnt for me, the course Im on really isnt teaching me anything, and Im not getting on well with it. Ive decided, that I am going to stay in Coventry for a while, as a means of looking for a job, in esessance untill the ned of the year, but after that Im not too worried about it all.
At the moment Im at Charli's came up on Thrusday, sort of suprised her a little. not much though as I had to tell her I was comming so she could make the spare bed! Been really nice spending time with her, even if she has been feeling ill the past few days. I on the other hand have been feeling ok last few days, sholder still aches from time to time, but who does have an old war wound?
Going back to Coventry tomorw, going to see everyone from that end of the world, Charli's up on Sataday, cant spend too much time apart! :). Then its off home for a bit, I mean, my brother doesnt have time to anoy my dad properly! Big Smiles :)
Feeling Very Ill
Not feeling too good at the moment, got a flu'y bug, not good :(. On the work front, its doing good, 132MC is done, just got to uplaod the photos. (for those wanting to know - www.phodefine.co.uk is were to go :)
Scrachpad: 131MC Ethics Group Project
Group projects are a integral part of the university process, the encourage students to interact with their class mates and give them an site into a increasingly important part of the working processes, interaction.
As part of the assessment for this module, it was required to in groups of no more then five, to research the newspaper,magazine or radio station, makes, identify a section not currently filled by the existing products, evaluate it for its possible achievements within the current market, and finally produce a pilot product that could be presented.
This piece will serve as a reflective retrospective as to the issues that were encountered during the project and the possible solutions that could have been applied to those problem spaces.
Initially the group discussed ideas, on no particular subject, rather on generally, although this was not as focused as it could have been it was effective. After a short period we settled on a project revolving around photos. All being avid photographers, we decided to create a website devoted to photography. It was pointed out that these types of areas exist, and fulfill their specifications fully.
Ideas floated around, regarding words, and there relation to photos, after all a photo tells 1000 words. It was decided that the focus of the product should be to define words in a predefined list by taking photographs. This was seen in the group as a good idea, one that would not take much time and that we all could do in such a way not to put too much pressure on our other commitments.
Group dynamics were not taken in consideration as the should have been sos an so would define them as integral to the running of a group, however it was seen that because of the groupies small size (4) this was not important. I feel personally that the group communicated well with a good level of understanding and planning.
The next major section of the project was the first stage of implementation, we had divided out tasks out evenly, personally I had been chosen to design and implement the website, I was fine with this, it was well within my skills, It was agreed that the rest of the group would take the photographs. The site was created using OSS software, and was hosted in my own domain. Therefore reducing the cost.
I personally believe that my contribution to the group was one of high achievement, I was able to helpfully direct the group, and hopefully was able to take everyones views into consideration. I do believe that more could have been done, if we had a longer time span, and perhaps it we had a firmer idea of the end product.